Freeze and Burn
Kara S.
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Dealing with emotions has always been a difficult process to me. For the longest time it felt like I had no positive outlet, and having to hold back challenging emotions without one manifested in two ways. Freeze was about my experiences with not being able to move, because I was too tired yet still felt guilty, or getting lost in and overthinking. I would often stay in a chair, or lay on the ground, just trying to process my emotions. When that eventually didn’t work, I got overwhelmed and overworked my brain. This led to my second piece, Burn. I would become incredibly panicked, gaining an abundance of energy. I would pace and overthink and become so overwhelmed I would scream while listening to songs in the shower. I’ve moved past these tendencies, but lots of others haven't. I wanted to write these to show how dangerous a cycle this way of releasing emotions is. Oftentimes people repress or try to push through their emotions without properly taking the time to deal with this. This is especially common in people who we raised as men. I am a trans woman in the midst of my transition, and the way I deal with my emotions have shifted. Through Freeze and Burn, I hope to show how negative emotions should not be kept inside. Instead we should search for positive ways to release our feelings, and not force ourselves to “hold it all together.”
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Creativity is my outlet.
